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Saturday, May 05, 2007

how lifeless. stuck at home on a saturday.
not really in the mood to do anything.
ive got a pile of homework waiting for me.
yet , im still here. rotting and doing nothing.
bestie started working today.
therefore theres no one accompanying me out today.
how great.
maybe i should like , go out on my own ?
sounds soo retarded -.-
whenever i gets moody , i'll think of my cousin.
which one you people may ask , that one thats already passed away.
i've been thinking why god is soo unfair.
everyone loves him and hes good in almost everything except woo-ing girls :x
and god chose to take him away from us.
why wouldnt god wanna take me instead ?
at least , im not as good as him ?
and everyone wont be soo upset till now.
if theres a chance to exchange our life , i would.
really. i aint kidding. i rather hes the one whom is living still.
and im the one gone.
at least , the whole of my family (including granny and others),
wouldnt be soo upset.
everyone misses him even though he has been gone for almost 3years.
i really really dont understand luh !
why god is soo selfish to take the good ones away and left the bad ones here ?!
cant god just take the bad ones instead ?!
or god is another one who ask for perfection?! -.-
hes like popular among friends & family.
and hes good in studies.
while im like the black sheep of my family ?
unpopular among friends.
lousy in studies.
GOD ! DONT BE FUSSY ! TAKE ME AWAY ! PLS ):
even if its just 1 day ?
or please let me have an accident and forget about everything ?
yes. those that hate me will be celebrating if it really happens.
im just down. really down.
did i said the wrong thing or done the wrong thing to caused all those coldness ?
or im being sentsative ?
definately not. i seriously sense something is wrong.
but whats exactly happening ?!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhs~ just tell me will you ? )":

Written @1:39 PM

我还在原地等你用你的温柔再次牵著我的手
但你却走回你的记忆♥